Thursday, January 31, 2013

Random Musings

There was a time when I wasn't busy all the time.

I forget what that time was like.

I'm slowly settling into my new job and the new semester. My new car finally feels like mine and my new house is starting to feel like a home. All the shiny newness has worn slightly off, but I haven't had the time to enjoy it. I have a new recipe I want to share but I don't get home early enough to photograph it. And while it may sound like I'm complaining, I'm actually really happy. I don't have the time to be lonely or upset about things that don't ultimately matter.

Sometimes keeping up the pace takes so much concentration your worries fall by the wayside.

It's only nine but I think I'll go to bed. Hopefully I'll find some sun on Saturday so I can snap some pictures. I think we could all use a little sun.

Friday, January 11, 2013

Give up the shit that weighs you down

Sometimes there's nothing left to do but let things go.

And I don't say this as if it's easy. I realize how incredibly hard it can be to clear out the ghosts that haunt your thoughts. How you can hold onto something for so long, that it becomes a strange comfort. I know first hand how pride can become a bitter mistress, but eventually there will come a day when you just can't hold on anymore. The extra weight becomes unwieldy and you realize you're no longer sure why you cared so much in the first place.

The other day I started laughing out loud in the car when I realized I'd finally let go of the hope of something that was never gonna happen. Then this song came on, highlighting how funny life can be, and I sang my heart out.

Some days everything is perfectly okay.

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Time to slow down

Instead of writing letters I'll never send I'm gonna take a bath and read a book. It seems like I spend all my time working or going out and I'm starting to feel like I tell people about myself more than I actually am myself. I'm going to change that.

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

Goodbye 2012

Ah it's time for the obligatory end of the year post! 2012 was a year of changes. As I've gotten more settled into my new life, I've learned so many things about myself it'd be impossible to ever put it into words. This year has been full of more living than any other year of my life and I'm incredibly thankful for the wonderful people that have made this year the amazing ride it was.

Santigold at In The Venue, Salt Lake City

I've been to more concerts this year than I have ever in my life. I saw The Naked and Famous, Cake, The Black Keys, The Arctic Monkeys, Santigold, Charlie XCX, The XX, John Talbot, Pink, Brad Paisley, Enrique Iglesias, Calvin Harris, and The Wanted (well kind of). And that's not counting the local bands I saw. I also had the pleasure of seeing Wicked, Thunder From Down Under, and Cirque du Soleil. I finally went to the East Coast and I had more fun in Vegas than I probably should have.

I lost some good friends but I also started a new job where I've met some of the coolest people I know. How 2013 will compete with this last year is beyond me. But I look forward to the ride.

Happy New Year!